If the time had mercy on me...
Whole world crushed before my eye. Heart broke down into pieces, the sound echoed, tears fell down, I could not shout because if also the world would listen, he was not going to do so. No option to make him hear my feeling, to make him fell my love. I had always wanted to say him one day but that one day never came in my life. I delayed to express and he didn’t wait for me. He has accomplished a long journey, a journey to god where I can never reach. My unexpressed love has been a burden for me, now it will neither allow me to live nor die peacefully.
If only I could have told him how alone I am without him, if only I could have told him that my whole world will be paralyzed without you that I cannot search my existence without you, then may the god would have saved him for me may he would wait a little for me now I am alone now I have not expressed now I would always doubt whether he would love me or not. Now I will always doubt whether he was on this earth for me or not I would always doubt whether those embraces were filled with love or not where he was mine or not whether I was born for him or not. When our eyes had met, he had felt as same as me or not. Every night if he had dreamt of me or not either I was his dream girl or not.
If only I had got the answer I could spend my whole life only in his fantasy peacefully. Even I can spend my whole life but these questions will always haunt me. I don’t believe in heaven and hell and existence of life after death but now I would like to pray god that my feelings are false at least I could express and get rid of it even if in heaven. All these questions have been turned into mystery with him. My answers would never be revealed. If only the time had mercy on me, I would have told him how much I loved him.
-Anonymous
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