Life and its illusions
The realities of life often leave me confused alone at the unknown bay. Every night I go to bed with some conclusion which I dig round the day. But the dawn of new day again turns the things wrong inspiring me to fish for even more. My life to this day has been nothing but a constant quest to know what the life is. Starting with my birth, I searched it in the love of my mother and hatred of enemies. In the endless inspiration of the earth and in the repulsion of the world, in the moment when I tried to trod and in the moment when I stumbled down. At every opposite poles of life, life has catered the tons of question before me. Even then, I don’t know what it is.
nor can I get it inquiring with my elders. so, I’m sure, my life is srue to continue in the same manner. and I vex whether it will endwith the lilfe rises the doubtsd of death as well. what is death.
So, what I believe is that the death is the prodigious moment of life when we fathom what the life is. I often hear the people raising obvious doubts why the great people end their day so fast; perhaps because they grasp the essence of life at the earliest. What is the avail of living if it is already accomplished?
I had written somewhere – I crave to win the world and so we lose with our life. Marching to win the life will lose the battle with the world. This is exactly what I believe. There are only few people who are able to win their life. The nature does not give birth to Socrates more often. And you know one thing; the society can never stand them. The world is too thoughtless, rash to study them. As a result, they have to succumb to the ill punishment at the end of it all. And this is simply because they have understood the life so well. What an irony is it?
They are valued only then when the world gets maturity with the passage of millions of hours. Lot of water flows in the Bagmati River and then only, we come down with consciousness.
Socrates sacrificed his life for the sake of truth. I often wonder if it is justifiable. Because, what is truth, how to define it and who is to justify it. I always believed that truth is absolute and assumption is relative – relative to time and space. It is what the world has survived with to this day. Assumption which is valued so much at one point of time gets washed away by the new assumptions invited by the new births in the world. So, what Galileo believe d– was it truth or merely an assumption which the society could no way adopt at his time, now it has been the ground to stand over and none knows what will happen to it in the future.
The things of the world are many. All these in cumulative manner and the fleeting nature of the world make my life even more complex. it fuels complexity of the world even more.
I wonder why the people sacrifice so much for success if we’re to pass away one day. If the fume of pyre is sure to melt all the records we have created and if our life will be a sheer myth after some point in the future. Why we sacrifice so much to live just 100 yrs in the planet which is sure to live at least for 4.5 billions. Is it our greatness or failure? Whatever be, one thing we need to put in the mind is that success makes our life easier. It does not make our living easier. I do have ambition nonetheless .I long to kiss it as well not because it is my purpose of life but is the way to live my life. Life which is simply a question in the realms of truth, and success; perhaps, a search for a grain of sand in the vast sandy desert.
-Shruti Kadariya
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